I've tried a quite a bit over the last few years, but I don't think I can write about music.
For the longest time all I wanted to do was write album and concert reviews. You know with all that flair I see on those other music review websites. I've never been all that good at describing music. It's like describing the abstract to me. Which is strange because any chance I get I like to talk about music.
I think I'm starting to come to terms with "retiring ideas." Not necessarily giving up, but giving me more of a chance to focus on things I should be focusing on. Like becoming a better photographer and showcasing myself a little better.
Also there are usually several deterrents out there preventing me from achieving things. Generally I'm number one on preventing myself from reaching a goal or accomplishing something. Other factors generally fall under the realization that there are literally hundreds if not thousands of the exact same types of projects happening on internet at same time. It's one of those I don't want to be just be white noise, and I definitely don't want to put out shitty product. That's what this blog is for.
I watched a documentary this morning online called PressPausePlay. It was a interesting look at the developments in the "arts" in the digital age. The benefits and downfalls of everyone being an "artist" and what it means for the arts community. If you've got an hour and change check it out. You won't regret it.
Watching PressPausePlay was a lot like listening to Back to Work or reading The Nerdist Way. By that I mean it makes me look at the choices and decisions in my life. Identifying priorities, contemplating directions, and wanting to achieve more. The sooner we learn that things aren't going to just be handed to us the sooner we learn to be better people.
Better, more creative, and enlightened people.
Why give up on my dreams and ambitions? I think if they were a priority or what I really wanted to do I'd have done them by now. I wouldn't be making excuses for why I'm not creating content. I have too many irons in the fire. I need to just focus on keeping the fire going.
With this said there is no reason I can't return to these ideas later on, but right now I need to focus on the getting something done. Not fifteen half-finished projects. Just one. One that says "Hey, I worked really hard on this and I want you to notice it."
That's what I'm doing right now. Working on something I've should have been focusing on since the beginning. Something for myself. Something I can sign my name to.
I'm not going to say what I'm working on, but those of you who know me well enough should probably have a working knowledge of what I'm constructing. For those of you who don't know it won't be too hard to connect the dots. If you can't get it I'll be making a post about it in the future I'm sure.
I'm working on being proud at something I make.