Peacocks.

Recently I've spent a lot of time laying on my couch in the dark listening to The Mountain Goats. My coffee table covered in empty bottles and dirty plates. I'm sure if I smoked there would be an ashtray over flowing with ash and cigarette butts. Doing this isn't unusual for me. Normally the couch is where I get my music listening done but as of late it has been the focal part of my breakdown.

You might be wondering why I haven't been posting on here or tsnldr.com all that much lately. Well it has been a weird few weeks around Casa De Tyson. Full of ups and downs. I always seem to focus on the downs more than the ups I guess I'm a bit of a pessimist. I don't think of the cool things that have happened lately like a getting a new 160gb Ipod  for free, my shiny new website or reconnecting with an old friend. I seem to look at things like my dad's motorcycle accident or the septic field backing up into my bathroom and thinking about how shitty my life is sometimes (pun intended). Sometimes bad things happen and you know what most of the time we have no control over them. I don't know if I believe in Karma but I seem to think I'm due. Things just haven't looked up for a while (or so I think).

Last week I found out I'm getting laid off from my job. Not to much details in the when and the why but I was told it was happening. I can see where it came from with the lack of a fire season this year in BC which means less revenue for the company. Even knowing all the "facts" it still feels like shit when you find out you aren't "needed/wanted." Even if it is only for a few months. At first I kind of felt like it was a personal attack on me, but I really know it wasn't. Heck I'm not the only person in the company getting laid off (I sure have some ego).

I've definitely come to terms with it (well sort of). I'm finally looking at the situation the way people keep telling me to. This could be something positive maybe I need the kick in the ass to go back to school or make something of myself. It seems weird to quote Semisonic but it is a sentiment I've heard a lot lately. "Every new beginning comes from some other beginning's end."

Now I'm trying to focus on all the positive things happening in the coming weeks. I'm an official photographer for The Rifflandia Music Festival starting this Thursday night. I get to take photos of amazing artists like K'Naan, Gord Downie, Jets Overhead, Ko, and Yukon Blonde. I'm also heading down to Seattle with Darryl to see John Roderick. Two things I'm insanely excited about doing. Plus their are countless concerts coming up in Victoria I got tickets for before I became unemployed. Music and photography is always my cure to the occasional blues.

Thinking positive and listening to good music.